Saturday, December 22, 2007
Pre Xmas Xmas Party =P
Woot.. ytd met up with some JC fren who i have not seen for a long time.. all thanks to my army vocation. Each time they meet up, i had duties to do... kaoz... we met in the evenin beginning with 4 of us onli.. so we over coffee shop near daniel's house to eat 1st.. den we went over to his house to stay over.... although we didn't do alot but it was damn fun.. we played stacko.. uno.. den had gift xchange 1st den we watch a movie... after that we played mahjong all the way till breakfast time.. waahahaha.. crap.. and i lost 5 bucks.. haha.. ee hui damn lucky.. e onli girl playing and she won the most.. well.. at least i didn't get any punishment for stacko since i managed to escape from it.. haha... been a while since i had so much laughter.. its a pity some last min couldn't make it.. otherwise it would be better.. after mahjong we went for breakfast at Mac.. we sat awhile and chatted b4 we all left (daniel they all buay tahan need to sleep liao.. lol) so i went over to granny's house cos they celebratin her bday.. sms'ed some1 and got my reply late.. for some reason.. my sms'ed hasn't been replied.. call not picked up.. not returned.. from that person.. nothin much that i can do.. slept awhile in the mornin and played with my cousins in thruout all way.. feelin damn sleepy now.. haha.. must be the lack of sleep and Gd food for the party makin me all feel too gd for sleepin.. and sooo thats wat i'm gonna do~ sleep~ =P
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Term Break
Finally exam is over and term break is here.. was really relieved abt it.. after the exam was over.. there were lots of thins done.. 1stly rite after the exam, my friends and i went out to city hall cos anil needs a hair cut.. den we went ard suntec shoppin.. Sat and sun was a little bit more packed.. i went help out with xiu's father to sell off Zoo's ticket den Sun nite i went over sis's house to watch 2 great soccer match.. hardly got any sleep.. and ytd.. we went out to watch Golden Compass.. to my surprise.. it was quite boring... the story line is rather not too bad.. but somehow.. it wasn't exciting... its way too plain for me but anil love it.. hmm.. i wonder y also.. after the movie.. we went to tcc to hve a drink and after tt wei sheng dash off (as usual.. =P) SOOoOOo we decided to go Vivo to walk ard.. and xiu bought a toy.. ya.. A TOY.. =P anyway.. 1/2 way thru i recieve some disturbing sms.. it really shut me off the nite.. i was tryin v hard not to think abt it.. but i couldn't.. but i dunno wat to do.. in fact.. i dun even noe wat i wan.. i just feel.. confused.. and this confusion is makin me feel frustrated.. the more i think.. the more tired i get... i'm beginnin to feel that i dun understand myself anymore.. for the past few months.. there are thins that happen and each time.. i get a xtremely different feelin... thins that i tot i wun mind at all are buggin me.. thins that i tot that i will be happy with are actually not... its weird and i dun like it.. CONFUSION
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Reflection
Today went playing paint with dale, yao yong , yi fan and xiu (e onli gal). It was damn fun.. but painful at the same time. Each group will play 2 rounds and each round consists of 2 halfs.. if we onli win 1 half den we will onli get 1 point. If we win 1 full round, that would be 3 points. Team with highest point will win. Unfortunately we came in with a tie with another group at 4 points. The 1st round was abit chaotic cos some of my friend didn't noe wat to do. But the 2nd round was darn gd. We had v gd team work and manage to win that full round. Had some slight injuries but really enjoyed myself.
Reflection isn't abt the above but rather abt ppl. From the last entry.. i was tokin abt my friend and her best friend relationship sour. The weirdest thin isn't abt the cool war.. but rather wat has been done. When i asked her abt wats done.. she just kept quiet and ans with nodes and shakes.
Friendship. What is it? Companion? Sense of belonging? Sense of identity? If u call someone ur friend. What does it mean? To me.. it doesn't matter wat he done b4 or wat his background is. Friendship cannot be replaced. BUT! True friendship doesn't built on words but trust. Trust built thru many events.. trust often fail not becos there isn't enuff understanding but becos none of the side is willing to hold on to it. We can onli truely understand other people thru many events. When 2 person fall out, no one willin to make ammendments and both will start to feel disappointed with each other. "So this is the real him/her" thats the 1st tot comes in mind. "Fine. i can do without him/her" the 2nd step and eventually everythin falls.
Everyones often say they noe what they hve to treasure.. but most of us are wrong. We nv noe who or wat to treasure until we loses it. Onli thru real experience then our foolishness will be wash off. To you... wat is your friend(name) to u? thats the 1st qn that every single one of us shld ask. Many of us takes thin for granted and thats human nature. If we ever lose somethin impt.. we ourselves are the onli one to blame. Look around.. ask urself wats this person to you.. wat hve u done for him/her... wat has he/she done for you... and u may realise that you neglected alot of thins. Dun live with regrets.. regrets will always be nothin more den painful memories and sadness.
Reflection isn't abt the above but rather abt ppl. From the last entry.. i was tokin abt my friend and her best friend relationship sour. The weirdest thin isn't abt the cool war.. but rather wat has been done. When i asked her abt wats done.. she just kept quiet and ans with nodes and shakes.
Friendship. What is it? Companion? Sense of belonging? Sense of identity? If u call someone ur friend. What does it mean? To me.. it doesn't matter wat he done b4 or wat his background is. Friendship cannot be replaced. BUT! True friendship doesn't built on words but trust. Trust built thru many events.. trust often fail not becos there isn't enuff understanding but becos none of the side is willing to hold on to it. We can onli truely understand other people thru many events. When 2 person fall out, no one willin to make ammendments and both will start to feel disappointed with each other. "So this is the real him/her" thats the 1st tot comes in mind. "Fine. i can do without him/her" the 2nd step and eventually everythin falls.
Everyones often say they noe what they hve to treasure.. but most of us are wrong. We nv noe who or wat to treasure until we loses it. Onli thru real experience then our foolishness will be wash off. To you... wat is your friend(name) to u? thats the 1st qn that every single one of us shld ask. Many of us takes thin for granted and thats human nature. If we ever lose somethin impt.. we ourselves are the onli one to blame. Look around.. ask urself wats this person to you.. wat hve u done for him/her... wat has he/she done for you... and u may realise that you neglected alot of thins. Dun live with regrets.. regrets will always be nothin more den painful memories and sadness.
One thin abt life that i luv and hate most is how unpredictable it can be. When u tot everythin is gone.. u realise its a start of another gd. When u r at cloud 9.. 1 sec and it can send u straight to hell 9.. it is this unforseen circumstances that made life full of surprises.. and the tot abt it makes me feel that i wan to move on to tml.. i wanna noe what r the thins i can make it happen. Of cos.. in my mind i was onl thinkin abt gd stuffs.. but in reality.. one wrong word/step can make a big impact.
A gd friend of mine was hvin probs.. Bf bday falls on the same day as her best friend. She chose her bf over her best friend for that day (btw.. her best friend told her it was alrite) Unexpectly.. her bf decided a place where her best friends and the remainin gang are meetin.. not exact location but same shoppin mall.. EVEN MORE UNEXPECTLY.. the gang went to the exact spot where she was.. initially everythin was fine.. but.. thins took a turn.. for a reason or another.. the gang was unhappy abt it.. and made a fuss... and it sour the r/s btw my friend and her best friend.. i dun understand the rational for their actions... i dun even understand y both grp can't get together to celebrate.. i feel that y is it that a celebration that is suppose to be happy can turn out to be so bad
My friend was down.. few days later.. rite in a middle of a lecture, her bf sms'ed her callin for a break up... i noe she is shock and she dunno wat to do.. she handed over her phone to me and i sms'ed back.. with generousity.. at that moment i was really sick.. flu and fever was settin in.. but i still decided to go bowlin with her and another friend.. i can c that she is tryin not to be bothered but once in a moment when i look at her and i knew she is still depress.. though she not showin out.. worse thin... on the same day her friend sms'ed her sayin that her bf also wans to break up with her..
WTF IS GOIN ON.. is there a routine? the thin is.. i dun understand y this bf of my friend can't personally speak to her.. there are thins that shld be said out and not just text it out.. is he even serious in the 1st place? though i feel like sayin him.. but i'm not in any position to do so.. if there is any1 that is bad.. i'm the 1st..
CA is comin and mayb all the studies and activities can wash her mind abit.. Sry girl.. i was really too sick to send u home that day.. that moment was my limit already.. hope ya feelin better.. and hope that i can get better from my flu and it..
A gd friend of mine was hvin probs.. Bf bday falls on the same day as her best friend. She chose her bf over her best friend for that day (btw.. her best friend told her it was alrite) Unexpectly.. her bf decided a place where her best friends and the remainin gang are meetin.. not exact location but same shoppin mall.. EVEN MORE UNEXPECTLY.. the gang went to the exact spot where she was.. initially everythin was fine.. but.. thins took a turn.. for a reason or another.. the gang was unhappy abt it.. and made a fuss... and it sour the r/s btw my friend and her best friend.. i dun understand the rational for their actions... i dun even understand y both grp can't get together to celebrate.. i feel that y is it that a celebration that is suppose to be happy can turn out to be so bad
My friend was down.. few days later.. rite in a middle of a lecture, her bf sms'ed her callin for a break up... i noe she is shock and she dunno wat to do.. she handed over her phone to me and i sms'ed back.. with generousity.. at that moment i was really sick.. flu and fever was settin in.. but i still decided to go bowlin with her and another friend.. i can c that she is tryin not to be bothered but once in a moment when i look at her and i knew she is still depress.. though she not showin out.. worse thin... on the same day her friend sms'ed her sayin that her bf also wans to break up with her..
WTF IS GOIN ON.. is there a routine? the thin is.. i dun understand y this bf of my friend can't personally speak to her.. there are thins that shld be said out and not just text it out.. is he even serious in the 1st place? though i feel like sayin him.. but i'm not in any position to do so.. if there is any1 that is bad.. i'm the 1st..
CA is comin and mayb all the studies and activities can wash her mind abit.. Sry girl.. i was really too sick to send u home that day.. that moment was my limit already.. hope ya feelin better.. and hope that i can get better from my flu and it..