Today went out to sentosa with classmate to enjoy the xiu's bday.. played volleyball.. kayak and enjoyed sakae sushi.. eugene and val went back 1st.. the rest of us took our time eating.. we spend a little time at a shop in vivo before we part with xiu and ed.. i bought a sort of mini room/house thing which is freaking hard to do because the glue is not holding the pieces together..
Some people often ask why do i like to always do handcrafts.. and always give them away... well it's rather simple.. when i'm focusing on completing the thing.. i can completely forget everything.. happy or sad.. but ya.. it's mainly to make me forget all the sad things and stress.. i find peace in doing things..
The reason why i give away is because i don't know how to express my feelings well to other people.. so i give out the things i completed to others.. i hope others can feel the effort and the feeling that i treasure them..
While i doing the minitures.. i suddenly remembered the time when someone threw away the present i made which took me one month.. right on the 2nd day after his bday because he accidentally spoiled it.. when i came to know it.. i got damn depressed.. but as usual i didn't show it out.. laugh and played as usual while we were out.. but it felt as though a knife stab right through..
So slowly.. i began to recall all the things i've done.. began to think if there someone who still hold on to them dearly as if it was the 1st time they received it?
Where do i stand in people's heart?
I hate the clock ticking in my house.. i hate the quiet night when i can clearly hear the ticking.. some how.. the mood wasn't right.. end up i would always play music to cover up.. music calms me too.. i think there are still a lot of uncertainty and insercurity within me..
No pain no gain.. gotta push myself more.. gotta be stronger.. i have chosen my path.. my way.. it will be the right one.. i will make it the right one..
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- School: Ngee Ann Poly Yr 3
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