Can't believe my fever is back again.. knnbccb.. headache coming back.. and i lost my appetite even more... now i like 1 meal a day is enough for me.. power rite? Freaking cold in classroom and LTs.. feeling damn shit until i dun feel like doing anything at all.. in fact if u ask me what i was doing these few days.. i can't remember at all.. My body is like working without the mind..
Thurs suppose to have IS and due to the IS spamming of mails.. i didn't see the announcement at all. Felt damn sorry cos only like Clarine went for the lesson.. a bit like PS her.. so ya.. so sorry i really didn't know.. actually ever since school started, I'm like damn lost can? assignments not done.. got lessons dunno.. damn farking sian la...
Today finally gotta meet with teach to consult on the Bioinfo project.. like more clear of what to do.. so felt much more relieved.. ended sch early and went to buy a converse sweater.. all thanks to someone who tempted me to do so.. on the way, suddenly remembered something and talk to Anil about it.. actually it was more of a warning.. some things just cannot be told.. especially to the wrong type of people.. especially those type i hate most.. communication only limits to work.. nothing more..
Just in case there is any misunderstanding.. i'm not referring anything about the vid today... I'm perfectly fine with it..
My barriers are up.. its difficult but it has started.. whatever is going to happen is no longer my concern.. at least that's what I'm hoping for.. really hard.. think it was deeper then i thought.. but I'm trying to get out.. not just i want a breather.. but also cos I dun think I'm of any needs.. giving up ain't i? whatever you all may think... but i think I've done enough.. maybe even too much.. If there is any changes felt.. please forgive me.. but i know that deep in my heart i will still care.. self confinement..
Maybe.. one day I will tell the truth out..
One piece of advise.. don't ask for more.. for your greed is endless.. don't take things for granted.. for they are not endless...
I'm going to start mugging for the end of semester exam whenever i got the free time.. too much time spent on other things and people.. working hard for a aim at least can get rid of all emotions and unnecessary thoughts.. i believe i have grown more over this 1 year plus right after ORD.. learn a lot about myself and others.. but there is definitely more to learn..
A laughter on the outside may not be a laughter on the inside.. am i still laughing?
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