I feel mad... angry.... at someone?? i dunno... i seriously dunno... all i noe is... some words.. some reply.. can really make ppl feel mad. But may be.. i'm more of sad den it is.. i'm sad at it.. and angry at myself but not being able to do anythin abt it. I dun understand myself anymore. Any situation i can handle with no probs. but right now.. i feel so helpless.. feel so restless. Dun bother askin me was goin on cos i hve no clue abt it. Dun ask me to open up when the opposite world is closed. sad.. angry.. disappoinment.. happiness.. anticipation.. all of these.. is just another vicious cycle...
Restless...................................................................
Monday, July 30, 2007
Anger~ lots of it
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
endless tests
woot.. finally finish my last project presentation for this semester.. onli left with the report to hand in. Oh man.. just when i tot i can take a rest.. tml i hvin bio test.. and next week i hve more tests as well.. and soon.. it will be end semester exam.. kaoz.. like so rush... even though i'm quite used to this as from JC life .. but it still put quite an amount of stress.. anyway.. i'm struggling.. and i hope that my score can maintain at AD grade.. mayb i put some amount of stress on myself too..
FOCUS~~ chiong ar~~~ HOLIDAY FASTER COME~~
" Negative thoughts are the weak link; a shift in your awareness and thinking positive will change your day."
FOCUS~~ chiong ar~~~ HOLIDAY FASTER COME~~
" Negative thoughts are the weak link; a shift in your awareness and thinking positive will change your day."
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Once again... i'm sick
Last sat went to granny's house to stay.. quite alot has changed since the last time i went there.. Now my 2 cousins get their own room at the 2nd floor. ya.. so i joined them and slept for the nite.. after that night i was catching a cold.. more or less shld be due to the excessive air con plus the rain.
Met xiu in the afternoon to study chemistry.. got test on monday.. after tt.. home... haha... it was a disaster.... even till today.. my runnin nose is still there.. been tryin v hard to handle with it.. sun nite was the worse.. my nose is practically like water tap.. the moment i take the tissue off my nose.. "water" start runnin.. sian sia.. my desktop like lots of "wantons".. i needed to prepare one box of tissue to supply my nose..haha.. must also be the changing weather that is affecting me... anyway.. though feelin better now.. just hope that all this goes away.. yea...
Met xiu in the afternoon to study chemistry.. got test on monday.. after tt.. home... haha... it was a disaster.... even till today.. my runnin nose is still there.. been tryin v hard to handle with it.. sun nite was the worse.. my nose is practically like water tap.. the moment i take the tissue off my nose.. "water" start runnin.. sian sia.. my desktop like lots of "wantons".. i needed to prepare one box of tissue to supply my nose..haha.. must also be the changing weather that is affecting me... anyway.. though feelin better now.. just hope that all this goes away.. yea...
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
sTudY + FuN??
last sun mornin woke up damn early like 6 am like tt.. so tt i could reach xiu's home at woodlands abt 8am to cycle.. got a this big tummy ache and arrived late at her house.. anyway.. went i got there.. she was also hvin her own "big business" haha.. ya.. so we went cycling to chong pang (yishun there) for breakfast.. on our way back.. along gambas ave or road (DUNNO LA) lol.. around sembawang there i think.. we went to take a look at the so called natural spring. We decided to stay and dip our leg for a while.. the water was like damn hot.. if u try to put ur leg immediately after gettin fresh spring water.. i think it might cook.. anyway.. we played some really 2pid games which tortured us.. haha.. dun wan to go into details.. after some time.. we went back to xiu's house to study Bstats as we got a test on monday.
Suppose to study.. but study a while we played uno stacko.. lol.. won quite a few times.. haha.. den xiu's fren brought chocolate over and played one round with us.. darn.. the chocolated all melted becos he brought it over in his bike.. soo ya.. but xiu and i decided to hve it using spoon. haha..
Wanted to go out for dinner.. and it started to shower heavily.. kaoz... ended up callin KFC over. Had to wait like 1 hr. Just went we started eatin not long.. xiu's dad came back from malaysia with durians~~ woot~~ i wanted to eat la.. but the KFC was fillin and still got sch and tests leh... scared later kanna fever.. the weird thin is her dad had his share in malaysia.. and her mother dun eat them.. xiu herself eat v little.. but it seems that he often brin durian home.. lol.. while her dad went to shower.. we quickly keep all the durian in a box into the fridge.. too bad our plan failed.. hahaa... after dinner.. we went to study abit more.. and i went home.. kaoz.. think i must be real shag.. cos i not onli left my calculator at her house.. even my student ID card also.. anyway.. the day was rather fun.. enjoyed but also studied...
Monday bstats test was ok.. but today's infotech test was a screw up.. section A was alright but B and C cannot make it. B is suppose to b 4 MCQ and hve to explain y we choose that ans.. NB... C is like case study.. kaoz.. hope that i can pass.. haha.. no faith in this test.. next week still got OC quiz.. and BIO quiz.. got lots of thins to do man.. tired..
"If you focus on results, you will never change. If you focus on change, you will get results."
Suppose to study.. but study a while we played uno stacko.. lol.. won quite a few times.. haha.. den xiu's fren brought chocolate over and played one round with us.. darn.. the chocolated all melted becos he brought it over in his bike.. soo ya.. but xiu and i decided to hve it using spoon. haha..
Wanted to go out for dinner.. and it started to shower heavily.. kaoz... ended up callin KFC over. Had to wait like 1 hr. Just went we started eatin not long.. xiu's dad came back from malaysia with durians~~ woot~~ i wanted to eat la.. but the KFC was fillin and still got sch and tests leh... scared later kanna fever.. the weird thin is her dad had his share in malaysia.. and her mother dun eat them.. xiu herself eat v little.. but it seems that he often brin durian home.. lol.. while her dad went to shower.. we quickly keep all the durian in a box into the fridge.. too bad our plan failed.. hahaa... after dinner.. we went to study abit more.. and i went home.. kaoz.. think i must be real shag.. cos i not onli left my calculator at her house.. even my student ID card also.. anyway.. the day was rather fun.. enjoyed but also studied...
Monday bstats test was ok.. but today's infotech test was a screw up.. section A was alright but B and C cannot make it. B is suppose to b 4 MCQ and hve to explain y we choose that ans.. NB... C is like case study.. kaoz.. hope that i can pass.. haha.. no faith in this test.. next week still got OC quiz.. and BIO quiz.. got lots of thins to do man.. tired..
"If you focus on results, you will never change. If you focus on change, you will get results."
Friday, July 13, 2007
big fat ass
just when i tot my stomach torture was all gone.. somethin else happen.. ok.. i had this module know as IAC.. its suppose 2 be about the community and staff.. so we suppose to engage in a project tokin abt one of the social concern.
ok.. my teacher really sux.. she is like everythin also so rigid.. she likes to repeat all her staffs.. worse thin is she always think that she is right. She also likes to complain that my group is v noisy. ok la.. we are noisy la but we always got do our thins lor.
today was the presentation day.. one group had one member not comin.. and another group was like totally not prepared. so she got fed up.. she keep complainin them for a super long time. my group was like totally prepared and we even prepared a 5 min music video clip to show. Btw.. my group are doin on why elderly end up in homes. Although the slides sequences abit blur but overall i would say can c got effort lor. Den she like say.. i'll gif u all a gd "B".. i wasn't statisfied.. not becos of the grade but rather how she let her emotion gets into her judgement. The other group that presentated had like wordy slides.. and they played 17 min long VOICE RECORDED interview and it wasn't even clear.. den she also gif them B. WTH? den she also damn weird.. b4 the projected was ready we were movin around.. like tt she also complain.. she even made all of us sit down on chairs.. like who the hell will notice the rest.. everyone focus is of cos on the speaker mah.. nb.. u think they care. Another thin is she even compared this sort of presentation to workin presentation. Come on la.. its different leh.. the scope of the the content is like 10 million times different lor.. also becos of her our project interview had to delay for more den a week. When the organisation replied to her.. she didn't even tell us.. gd thin we decided to call back the organisation to check. If we had waited.. thins will be bad for us.
The thin tt irritated me the most was her 2pid story. She said durin her uni time.. there was this girl with mental problems.. suddenly asked her for help.. she got to her from and she say this girl's table got alot of empty bottles which suppose to be some pills for her mental problems. My teacher got traumatize that she felt ill durin her exam and she did badly for her paper so she got a 2nd lower class honors. Few yrs later when my teacher met this realise she had a better career path then her.. and her reason is becos she hve 2nd class upper honors.
Sooo.. in class she was sayin tt we shld stay away and stuffs.. like wtf.. here she is teachin abt community work and now she is sayin this kind of thing.. is she advocatin we shouldn't help ppl especially durin exams? how can she blame that girl for her weak mind and will? that girl is undergoin a worser time den she is.. she has been fightin hard.. and to be able to complete her Uni i must say she is really strong and she deserve it. She shld feel good that she helped some1 in need.. wat if that girl succide. She will regret that she didn't offer a helpin hand. This will traumatize her even more.. i cannot take it.. she just spoiled my day. i cannot stand people who say and do this kind of thin. U SUCK!
"To look backward for a while is to refresh the eye, to restore it, and to render it the more fit for its prime function of looking forward."
ok.. my teacher really sux.. she is like everythin also so rigid.. she likes to repeat all her staffs.. worse thin is she always think that she is right. She also likes to complain that my group is v noisy. ok la.. we are noisy la but we always got do our thins lor.
today was the presentation day.. one group had one member not comin.. and another group was like totally not prepared. so she got fed up.. she keep complainin them for a super long time. my group was like totally prepared and we even prepared a 5 min music video clip to show. Btw.. my group are doin on why elderly end up in homes. Although the slides sequences abit blur but overall i would say can c got effort lor. Den she like say.. i'll gif u all a gd "B".. i wasn't statisfied.. not becos of the grade but rather how she let her emotion gets into her judgement. The other group that presentated had like wordy slides.. and they played 17 min long VOICE RECORDED interview and it wasn't even clear.. den she also gif them B. WTH? den she also damn weird.. b4 the projected was ready we were movin around.. like tt she also complain.. she even made all of us sit down on chairs.. like who the hell will notice the rest.. everyone focus is of cos on the speaker mah.. nb.. u think they care. Another thin is she even compared this sort of presentation to workin presentation. Come on la.. its different leh.. the scope of the the content is like 10 million times different lor.. also becos of her our project interview had to delay for more den a week. When the organisation replied to her.. she didn't even tell us.. gd thin we decided to call back the organisation to check. If we had waited.. thins will be bad for us.
The thin tt irritated me the most was her 2pid story. She said durin her uni time.. there was this girl with mental problems.. suddenly asked her for help.. she got to her from and she say this girl's table got alot of empty bottles which suppose to be some pills for her mental problems. My teacher got traumatize that she felt ill durin her exam and she did badly for her paper so she got a 2nd lower class honors. Few yrs later when my teacher met this realise she had a better career path then her.. and her reason is becos she hve 2nd class upper honors.
Sooo.. in class she was sayin tt we shld stay away and stuffs.. like wtf.. here she is teachin abt community work and now she is sayin this kind of thing.. is she advocatin we shouldn't help ppl especially durin exams? how can she blame that girl for her weak mind and will? that girl is undergoin a worser time den she is.. she has been fightin hard.. and to be able to complete her Uni i must say she is really strong and she deserve it. She shld feel good that she helped some1 in need.. wat if that girl succide. She will regret that she didn't offer a helpin hand. This will traumatize her even more.. i cannot take it.. she just spoiled my day. i cannot stand people who say and do this kind of thin. U SUCK!
"To look backward for a while is to refresh the eye, to restore it, and to render it the more fit for its prime function of looking forward."
Friday, July 06, 2007
fight of the life
ok.. recently was really bad for me.. my stomach flu is like on and off.. besides that.. i had to combat runnin nose thruout the whole of ytd.. it was bad.. real bad.. it onli became better around 6+ pm when i was in the Cell Bio xtra lesson.. the stomach flu was bad enuff already.. and the 2pid runnin nose had to come.. it was a fight of my life man.. somehow or rather i'm makin it.. haha.. but my stomach's condition is still pendin.. i dunno whether a relapse might happen anot.. but i'm prayin it doesn't.. bless me~~
"The better a man is, the more mistakes he will make, for the more new things he will try."
"The better a man is, the more mistakes he will make, for the more new things he will try."